I’ve Tried

I’ve tried so hard to be the best I can be, not only for others, but for myself. I’ve tried to forge the world with my own two hands, to control the outcome of every given possible situation, and failed. I’ve tried to be the best son, nephew, grandson, brother. I’ve failed at each of these, the one which I fail most at is being a lover. I’ve given it my all, but it is clear, you cannot force things that were not meant to be, nor meant to happen. I’ve tried to grasp the concept of this, but the thought of doing so pushes beyond insanity.

-Ansr

Pathetic..

I find it pathetic for us as people to have to lose something to truly understand what it really meant to us. At first it was saddening to me, but now it is just sickening to see that we take for granted what we have, or have had in the past. Whether it be a cherished memory, or something you still hold today. Just think, what made you feel the way you do today about that item, or person? My guess is that they are gone making you treasure it dearly. Just never take for granted with what you have, because once the good thing is gone, it’s gone forever. 

I am writing this, because I feel as if this is happening to me and this has happened to me before. Clearly, I don’t learn from my mistakes. Fucking pathetic right?

Finally..

My long awaited plans can now be put into motion, no more prolonging or procrastinating. Time to do the damn thing and get serious.

Perfectionism

Fuckin art, I love, but I hate how one little line can ruin the entire outcome of the masterpiece. Fckin A. Back at square one, yet again..So bothersome, I hate being a perfectionist.

Finally..

I logged back into my tumblr account. It’s been a long while since I’ve been to this damn site. I remember why I started it, but later lost interest. I am here to once again share my thoughts, views, aspects, art and whatever else there is to share. So let the good times begin.

-Ansr

To my Love

-Letter to my Krista <3
Who is honored with your presence now? And do they even care? The thought of you not being admired Fills me with despair… Do they appreciate your loveliness? Do they marvel at your splendor? Do they love to hear your velvet voice? Do they adore your smile so tender? If they do not Then they all are fools. and had you been with me, Every day, my love, you’d be a queen because that’s what you are to me. I’m at your feet and I come with gifts my body, heart, and soul. They’re yours to do with as you please to command and to control. I give myself with all my heart. I’m yours for all of time, Your slave, your king, your anything. I am glad that you say that you are mine. And to this I love To lay a kiss on your lips, so gentle and delicate is like picking the drops of dew off the petals of a rose. I hold you close and I feel safe, sheltered in from the rain, from the storms that grow and surround me. I take your hand and look into your eyes, and see a heart made of gold and soul so pure. You see you are an angel, an angel to me. I could not help but fall madly in love with you, the one who stole my heart. Im glad you did. because I could never find one such as you… Some one who makes each day the best, each laugh the longest, each tear the saddest, and a life, my life, worthwhile
-Jordan <3

Love/Faith

Love

There is nothing love cannot face.

There is no limit to its faith

its hope and its endurance….

Faith

Faith is the bird that feels the light when the dawn is still dark..

Change

Time passes by and people change. Life’s very setting becomes a false pretending and so here we stand,unsure of what’s to come,yet together as one we shine the consuming darkness in our candle light. My words transcribe the passing of age and so forth is a new heart set aflame. Do not resend this letter,these words are only for those I hold dear and are meant for you as a dear and close person to my heart. I’m set apart and here I’m reborn only to vanish once more. The light at the end is blinding yet now I know I’m not blind. Faith,Love,Happiness,Honor ,Courage. I’m set free,now let me die willingly,live to die,die to live,we are one,and here we shall arise to our grateful peace.You’re a part of my soul and my very being,now together,let us be,for now,my time has come. So long and farewell,only to say Hello and Good day

Memory

A memory never dies into the shallow grave dug deep,it merely fades to darkness until retrieved by the blinding light beyond our eternal skies. Shed the tears of a crimson fate,disguise your hate by a shallow slate. Eternally this fire burns,kindle the ashes and fortify our hate. Deep within the dungeon of humanity,lays that which we cannot debate. Live on and live well,live in hate,live in love. Never retaliate and never submit to those dark thoughts,for beside lay the greatest of halts. As one we unite,as one we fight. Friendships can touch once,and last a lifetime,burn alongside me my fellow brethren,and together we die to live yet anew

My portfolio

My portfolio is me. It’s everything I am and everything I am not. It shows my weakness’ and my strengths, my self-confidence and self-esteem. My past, present and most definitely my future. My portfolio is where I am young. Where I have been, places I shouldn’t have gone, and places I shouldn’t go. It’s just a book. It’s my inspiration, my generation and it’s never finished, never complete, always work at progress. It’s everything I’ve ever seen, heard, touched, smelled, sensed and believed. It holds my worst fears and all my hopes at the same time. It’s the beginning of a beginning and the end of an era. It’s so much more than just a phase. Describing my portforliio is describing ME!